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VNIX - My Heart Is Always Breaking In The End (Visualizer)
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VNIX - My Heart Is Always Breaking In The End (Visualizer)

The first single off my upcoming debut full-length album “Apotheosis” (coming 2022) is officially out! Download: https://music.apple.com/us/album/my-heart-is-always-breaking-in-the-end-single/1595342475 The song discusses the disillusionment of transitioning from youthful innocence to jaded adulthood and the uncomfortable waves of emotions one undergoes during this time, including the bittersweetness of life; how it can be both depressing and yet captivatingly breathtaking and awe-inspiring, breaking our hearts in more ways than one. In the process of growing up, we come to terms with darker truths of our experience, such as the cathartic realization of childhood traumas that we must learn to heal while maintaining regulation of the symptoms and patterns that have emerged as a result. The experience of life can break our hearts, it can also compel us to spill them in effortful expressions of who we are, but that ultimately, the meaning and understanding of life and why it is the way it is cannot be fully fathomed until the end of life, when we transition beyond the human experience and are birthed (aka death) into the next realm that is the spiritual experience. Equally this song's subtext, from my subconscious perspective, discusses how being the scapegoat from narcisstic family abuse has damaged my connection to myself during the developmental years of a child ages 0-7 and created significant complex PTSD trauma ("demons of the mind"). Please support my ability to continue making and contributing art to all of you through giving a donation today. Your generous donations go directly to artistic creations such as recorded music, publishing books, paintings: 1. https://account.venmo.com/u/vnixmusic 2. https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/musicofvnix Available on 24+7, 7 digital, amazon music, anghami, apple itunes, awa, boomplay, deezer, hungama, iheartradio, claro musica imusica, inproduction, kdigital, kkbox, kuack, line music, medianet, napster, netease cloud, pandora, qobuz, resso, saavn, shazam, slacker radio, soundexchange, spotify, tencent music entertainment, tidal, tiktok, united media agency, yandex, and youtube music. Lyrics: I remember as a child when I witnessed all the colors of the world Didn't know that pain existed till it hit me like a train breaking from rail Hey, oh, yeah It was then that all the shadows started covering what matters like a veil I was startled by emotion heavy on me like an ocean I can't sail In the end, in the end My heart is always breaking in the end, in the end My heart is always spilling in the end, in the end You'll never understand it till the end, till the end Love was falling without reason Fight like vikings, fuck like heathens till you failed I lost my innocence to demons of the mind and in my feelings I derailed Hey, oh, yeah Tried to spread a little kindness but these people make me fantasize their hell (so violent) Can't transcend the skin and grind of being human cause their spirit's under spell In the end, in the end My heart is always breaking in the end, in the end My heart is always spilling in the end, in the end You'll never understand it till the end, till the end 1234 let's go! In the end whatcha really think? Whatcha really thinking huh? In the end Ooh, you think you know? The heart, the mind, the body, the time Ooh, you think you know? But in the end, in the end Your heart is always breaking in the end, in the end Your heart is always spilling in the end, in the end You'll never understand it till the end, till the end In the end... Music, Lyrics, Production, Mixing: VNIX Mixing, Mastering: Josh Smith Copyright 2021 ------ SUBSCRIBE SHARE LIKE COMMENT ------ Follow VNIX: www.vnixmusic.com https://soundcloud.com/vnixmusic https://www.youtube.com/musicofvnix https://facebook.com/vnixmusic https://bandcamp.com/vnixmusic https://www.sonicbids.com/band/vnixmusic https://vnixmusic.tumblr.com https://instagram.com/vnixmusic https://instagram.com/vnixlife https://instagram.com/vnixart
VNIX - Love Through The Pain (Official Audio)
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VNIX - Love Through The Pain (Official Audio)

The new single "Love Through The Pain" is now out! This song discusses narcissistic family abuse from the scapegoated child's perspective, reflecting on the hurt, the challenge of fighting through that pain to recovery, learning not to lose yourself to the monster abuse wants you to become, but instead finding yourself through healing, the power of love, and renewed trust with safe people. Please support my ability to continue making and contributing art to all of you through giving a donation today. Your generous donations go directly to artistic creations such as recorded music, publishing books, paintings: 1. https://account.venmo.com/u/vnixmusic 2. https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/musicofvnix Available on: 24+7, 7 digital, amazon music, anghami, apple itunes, awa, boomplay, deezer, hungama, iheartradio, claro musica imusica, inproduction, kdigital, kkbox, kuack, line music, medianet, napster, netease cloud, pandora, qobuz, resso, saavn, shazam, slacker radio, soundexchange, spotify, tencent music entertainment, tidal, tiktok, united media agency, yandex, and youtube music. Lyrics: You taught me I wasn’t strong I had to learn who I was on my own My mirror for how to love was you In me, you put all your shame I was your scapegoat to rage on and blame You showed me I was worth less than you I’m gonna fight through the Fight through the shame until I heal, till I change Fight through the, fight through the shame And, I’m gonna love through the Love through the pain until I’m me once again Love through the, love through the pain I only needed your love To be myself and accepted as was I never felt good enough for you I fought to survive who you were To save the life inside me I deserved I left to learn how to love myself Chorus x1 Imma make a change, Imma do it right, right Findin' peace of mind, Imma win this fight, fight Wiggle alligator in these waters, what a life Imma space cruiser, heading to the star light I can make a difference, I believe it, now I know Imma heal myself, I'll be helping other's grow The phoenix has a mission, burning brightly Now it shows Oh, I’m gonna dance through the Dance through the pain, find the joy once again Dance through the, dance through the pain I'm gonna love! I’m gonna fight through the Fight through the shame until I heal, till I change Fight through the, fight through the shame (Imma do me because I know you'll never change) And, I’m gonna love through the Love through the pain until I’m me once again Love through the, love through the pain I'm gonna love I'm gonna love I'mma love myself, love myself now I'mma love myself, love myself, love myself now, right now I'mma love myself, love myself now I'mma love myself, love myself, love myself now, right now I'mma love myself, love myself now I'mma love myself, love myself, love myself now, right now Music, Lyrics, Production, Mixing: VNIX Mixing, Mastering: Josh Smith Copyright 2022 ------ SUBSCRIBE SHARE LIKE COMMENT ------ Download the single "Body Of Fire": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/body-of-fire-single/1603909581 Download the single "Take Me Back To Your Sky": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/take-me-back-to-your-sky-single/1599421451 Download the single "My Heart Is Always Breaking In The End": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/my-heart-is-always-breaking-in-the-end-single/1595342475 Download the single "Bad For You": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/bad-for-you-single/1587283850 Download the EP "500": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/500-ep/1464879959 Download the single "Sexual Telepathy": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/sexual-telepathy-single/1465399631 Download the single "Fear Over Love (Acoustic)": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/fear-over-love-acoustic-single/1484093853 Follow VNIX: www.vnixmusic.com https://soundcloud.com/vnixmusic https://www.youtube.com/musicofvnix https://facebook.com/vnixmusic https://bandcamp.com/vnixmusic https://www.sonicbids.com/band/vnixmusic https://vnixmusic.tumblr.com https://instagram.com/vnixmusic https://instagram.com/vnixlife https://instagram.com/vnixart Check out VNIX other videos: - Music Videos: https://youtu.be/9MsJrvFToYM - The 500 EP: https://youtu.be/BEd8Ord9yR8 - Song A Day series: https://youtu.be/bAjewsBOgyQ Donate to help VNIX continue making music: - Venmo @vnixmusic (preferred) - https://www.paypal.me/musicofvnix
VNIX - Bad For You (Official Audio)
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VNIX - Bad For You (Official Audio)

"Bad For You" is now available on iTunes, Spotify, and all other streaming sites. Please support my ability to continue making and contributing art to all of you through giving a donation today. Your generous donations go directly to artistic creations such as recorded music, publishing books, paintings: 1. https://account.venmo.com/u/vnixmusic 2. https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/musicofvnix Written, Produced, and Mixed by VNIX. Mixed and Mastered by Josh Smith. I've worked hard to create my own sound, and since people don't usually know how to label or compare my music, I've made my own genres. "Bad For You" and "Sexual Telepathy" are dark erotic pop horror romance. Lyrics: You heart is pure and true, while mine's a Rubik's cube Twisted and confusing, frustrating but amusing Complicated, jaded, you're fighting but you're losing Am I a thrill for you? Get outta, get outta my head If you want me baby then take my love, get in position I need a sub, don't need no feelings Ooh, you know I'm bad for you It's in your nature; mind, body, soul If you're craving danger, then kneel, obey your Master's control I need a sub, don't need no feelings Ooh, you know I'm bad for you Bloodlust across my teeth A message to warn of me I don't have to hurt you to be hurting you If I'm in your mind then the seed already grew Now let me play with you Get outta, get outta my head If you want me baby then take my love, get in position I need a sub, don't need no feelings Ooh, you know I'm bad for you It's in your nature; mind, body, soul If you're craving danger, then kneel, obey your Master's control I need a sub, don't need no feelings Ooh, you know I'm bad for you I'm bad for you I don't have to kill you to be killing you Get outta, get outta my head If you want me baby then take my love, get in position I need a sub, don't need no feelings Ooh, you know I'm bad for you It's in your nature; mind, body, soul If you're craving danger, then kneel, obey your Master's control I need a sub, don't need no feelings Ooh, you know I'm bad for you You know I'm bad, you know I'm bad, bad You know I'm bad, you know I'm bad for you You know I'm bad, bad, you know I'm bad, bad You know I'm bad, bad, you know I'm bad for you ------ SUBSCRIBE SHARE LIKE COMMENT ------ Download the single "Body Of Fire": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/body-of-fire-single/1603909581 Download the single "Take Me Back To Your Sky": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/take-me-back-to-your-sky-single/1599421451 Download the single "My Heart Is Always Breaking In The End": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/my-heart-is-always-breaking-in-the-end-single/1595342475 Download the single "Bad For You": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/bad-for-you-single/1587283850 Download the EP "500": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/500-ep/1464879959 Download the single "Sexual Telepathy": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/sexual-telepathy-single/1465399631 Download the single "Fear Over Love (Acoustic)": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/fear-over-love-acoustic-single/1484093853 Follow VNIX: www.vnixmusic.com https://soundcloud.com/vnixmusic https://www.youtube.com/musicofvnix https://facebook.com/vnixmusic https://bandcamp.com/vnixmusic https://www.sonicbids.com/band/vnixmusic https://vnixmusic.tumblr.com https://instagram.com/vnixmusic https://instagram.com/vnixlife https://instagram.com/vnixart Check out VNIX other videos: - Music Videos: https://youtu.be/9MsJrvFToYM - The 500 EP: https://youtu.be/BEd8Ord9yR8 - Song A Day series: https://youtu.be/bAjewsBOgyQ Donate to help VNIX continue making music: - https://www.paypal.me/musicofvnix
VNIX - Body of Fire (Visualizer)
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VNIX - Body of Fire (Visualizer)

The second single, "Body of Fire", off the upcoming dark-erotic-pop EP "Zenith Chasm". About: The song is about treating sexual intimacy, even within the confines of BDSM, as a sacred experience to be shared between hearts that are bonded in love and devotion. On the surface, the Dom can be both the romantic nurturing partner the sub needs, while also being the dominating sexual presence the sub craves. Like the dragon phoenix, both dualities have balanced space to express themselves in the sacred arena of physical and emotional intimacy. In this instance, the seed of the Dom is looked at as sacred and the transference of DNA as a ritual of rebirth. When the seed of the Dom combines with the DNA of the sub, it has the power to transmogrify them into a stronger more powerful individual. I have a whole philosophy on the sacredness of seed that I will publish later in the year to explain this more. Please support my ability to continue making and contributing art to all of you through giving a donation today. Your generous donations go directly to artistic creations such as recorded music, publishing books, paintings: 1. https://account.venmo.com/u/vnixmusic 2. https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/musicofvnix Available on: 24+7, 7 digital, amazon music, anghami, apple itunes, awa, boomplay, deezer, hungama, iheartradio, claro musica imusica, inproduction, kdigital, kkbox, kuack, line music, medianet, napster, netease cloud, pandora, qobuz, resso, saavn, shazam, slacker radio, soundexchange, spotify, tencent music entertainment, tidal, tiktok, united media agency, yandex, and youtube music. Lyrics: Let me in slowly, I can behave Let me bewitch you, don't be afraid (do what I choose) You know I want you, you know I do Feel my desire unload in you I just want you all to myself, cause you are my everything You're my heaven and hell So let me endow you, let me inside Open your heart, open up wide Baby, lie on my pyre, soak yourself with desire Every time you whisper, "Harder!", I will fuck you on fire Come and worship, I'm your sacred lover Your sacred lover, worship me, your sacred lover Let the smoke take you higher, feel my breath fill your lungs Every time you whisper, "Cum for me!", I'll shoot like a gun I'm rugged like a dirty fucker, a dirty fucker Savage like a dirty fucker I won't control you, it's not what I want, not what you need I will adore you, take me within, under your skin Crave and consume me, show me your teeth, bite till I bleed Feel my desire, feel it explode inside of you I just wanna give you everything a soul can give I just wanna be the love and reason that you live Let me in slowly, if you don't mind, if you can bare it at all Baby, lie on my pyre, soak yourself with desire Every time you whisper, "Harder!", I will fuck you on fire Come and worship, I'm your sacred lover Your sacred lover, worship me, your sacred lover Let the smoke take you higher, feel my breath fill your lungs Every time you whisper, "Cum for me!", I'll shoot like a gun I'm rugged like a dirty fucker, a dirty fucker Savage like a dirty fucker Let me light the match, let our bodies crash I can be the one, wanna be the one Let's unload this gun, pull the trigger, done Baby, lie on my pyre, soak yourself with desire Every time you whisper, "Harder!", I will fuck you on fire Come and worship, I'm your sacred lover Your sacred lover, worship me, your sacred lover Let the smoke take you higher, feel my breath fill your lungs Every time you whisper, "Cum for me!", I'll shoot like a gun I'm rugged like a dirty fucker, a dirty fucker Savage like a dirty fucker Music, Lyrics, Production, Mixing: VNIX Mixing, Mastering: Josh Smith Copyright 2021 Follow VNIX: www.vnixmusic.com https://soundcloud.com/vnixmusic https://www.youtube.com/musicofvnix https://facebook.com/vnixmusic https://bandcamp.com/vnixmusic https://www.sonicbids.com/band/vnixmusic https://vnixmusic.tumblr.com https://instagram.com/vnixmusic https://instagram.com/vnixlife https://instagram.com/vnixart Check out VNIX other videos: - Music Videos: https://youtu.be/9MsJrvFToYM - The 500 EP: https://youtu.be/BEd8Ord9yR8 - Song A Day series: https://youtu.be/bAjewsBOgyQ
VNIX - Take Me Back To Your Sky (Visualizer)
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VNIX - Take Me Back To Your Sky (Visualizer)

Download the opening track and second single, "Take Me Back To Your Sky", off the upcoming cosmic-pop album "Apotheosis" (2022) https://music.apple.com/us/album/take-me-back-to-your-sky/1599421451?i=1599421452. Please support my ability to continue making and contributing art to all of you through giving a donation today. Your generous donations go directly to artistic creations such as recorded music, publishing books, paintings: 1. https://account.venmo.com/u/vnixmusic 2. https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/musicofvnix About: The song discusses how trauma can interfere with the headspace needed to connect in and develop a new relationship. It paints how fears around trust and being cheated on can be difficult to manage with so much past experience serving as proof that humans are deceptive creatures, yet acknowledging that a new person hasn't yet earned being burdened by suspicions and the need to challenge oneself to be open to love again and give a fair chance to a someone. As the relationship becomes more and more self-sabotaged by insecurities, fears, stories, trauma response patterns, and fearful avoidance, the human need for love always circles back to love, wanting to be part of someone's flight flying in the open skies of their love. Available on: 24+7, 7 digital, amazon music, anghami, apple itunes, awa, boomplay, deezer, hungama, iheartradio, claro musica imusica, inproduction, kdigital, kkbox, kuack, line music, medianet, napster, netease cloud, pandora, qobuz, resso, saavn, shazam, slacker radio, soundexchange, spotify, tencent music entertainment, tidal, tiktok, united media agency, yandex, and youtube music. Lyrics: I get so afraid, I fight trauma in my brain You trigger that pain, can't tell what is real and what is fake Oh, all the words you say kill me in different ways My OCD's spiraling, but goddamn I'm trying Oh x4 When you're bored with me do you call him for novelty? All alone at night do you betray my heart my body in your mind for his? Oh, I feel insecure, need healing to reassure Your fear's, your avoidance, don't help rid the poison Oh x4 Take me back, take me back to your sky Take me back Stop the pain and let me in Let me in Take me back, take me back to your sky Take me back, take me back to your sky Take me back, take me back to your sky Take me back, take me back to your sky Music, Lyrics, Production, Mixing: VNIX Mixing, Mastering: Josh Smith Copyright 2021 ------ SUBSCRIBE SHARE LIKE COMMENT ------ Download the single "Body Of Fire": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/body-of-fire-single/1603909581 Download the single "Take Me Back To Your Sky": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/take-me-back-to-your-sky-single/1599421451 Download the single "My Heart Is Always Breaking In The End": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/my-heart-is-always-breaking-in-the-end-single/1595342475 Download the single "Bad For You": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/bad-for-you-single/1587283850 Download the EP "500": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/500-ep/1464879959 Download the single "Sexual Telepathy": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/sexual-telepathy-single/1465399631 Download the single "Fear Over Love (Acoustic)": - https://music.apple.com/us/album/fear-over-love-acoustic-single/1484093853 Follow VNIX: www.vnixmusic.com https://soundcloud.com/vnixmusic https://www.youtube.com/musicofvnix https://facebook.com/vnixmusic https://bandcamp.com/vnixmusic https://www.sonicbids.com/band/vnixmusic https://vnixmusic.tumblr.com https://instagram.com/vnixmusic https://instagram.com/vnixlife https://instagram.com/vnixart Check out VNIX other videos: - Music Videos: https://youtu.be/9MsJrvFToYM - The 500 EP: https://youtu.be/BEd8Ord9yR8 - Song A Day series: https://youtu.be/bAjewsBOgyQ Donate to help VNIX continue making music: - https://www.paypal.me/musicofvnix
Sexual Telepathy (Visualizer)
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CREEP (Official Video)
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An independent artist from Philadelphia, VNIX always felt different from most kids around him. As a child, he was deeply intuitive, creative, sensitive, hyper-vigilant, introverted, but strong-willed, intellectual, and determined. The need to contribute to the world in ways that unified humanity and strengthened their hearts was always at the core of his focus. Feeling out of place and bullied at school, he retreated to his room or various empty churches that had pianos, where he taught himself to write, sing, and perform at a young age. Sitting in the dark, hardly able to see the keys, allowed him to let nothing but the music speak through his fingers, finding the right chords that reflected the best soundscape to his feelings or thoughts. In addition, he drew video game monsters, a way of taking the dark parts of his own life and creating beauty out of them through art, wrote horror stories, books, poetry, designed clothes, came up with invention ideas, and even created horror movie scripts and concepts regularly as an escape from his feelings of isolation, emotional burn out, and trauma. During this time, he branched out to local musical theaters as a means of expression and outlet for his creative inclinations and to seek community with like-minds.

 

As he got older, his parents surprised him with a keyboard for Christmas and so his poetry turned into songwriting and his inner thoughts into vocalized melody. He began carrying his keyboard to various open mics to test his original music on any ear that would listen. In 2006, he received a full scholarship for acting at Point Park University. A memorable experience from that was having the theater director leave the audition room to find his parents and shake their hand saying "That was the best audition I've ever seen." Originally wanting to act in films or direct horror movies, his love for music was too powerful to ignore and he later dropped out to pursue his passion. Shortly after, he auditioned and received scholarship to attend Berklee College of Music, but dropped out after 2 years due to massive student loan debt and financial inability.

Losing hope, he returned back home to the place he tried to escape so often. He learned to instill in himself the importance of persistence and hard work and dedicated his life to chasing this dream and finding a way to make the impossible possible. He began writing music prolifically, composing hundreds of songs, some of which can be found on his YouTube channel in his "Song A Day" series. With little money and resources and virtually no networks, VNIX learned to become a self-sufficient creative force, understanding very early on, that if he wanted his dream to come to fruition, he’d have to fund every aspect of his art himself and build any bridge that was needed to be crossed. From here, he began working 2-3 jobs to save up to record; however, his first studio album was abandoned, feeling that the music was not aligned with the aesthetic he imagined for himself. Leaving that music behind, he adopted the alias V The Phoenix and performed locally, but these performances always left him with a sense of emptiness, as he felt constrained to a piano and unable to showcase all the other aspects to his creativity that he longed to share.

With an intense desire to turn VNIX into something larger than himself, he began to design his own costumes and stage props, conceiving a live show that was more than just music but a whole experience. Heavily influenced by his father's love for comic-books and superheroes, as well as, his own admiration for the phoenix mythology and spiritual connection to the rebirth energy of the cosmos, he began transforming VNIX into a multi-platform icon; painting and selling art, writing poetry, writing philosophy, designing outlandish wardrobes, wearing red phoenix face paint, building giant stage constructions, and over the top props like his keyboard with large phoenix wings. In 2017, he even shaved his head and had his entire scalp tattooed with beautiful red roses that extend down his neck, chest, shoulder, and arm; a symbol of beauty blossoming from something dark, the power of rebirth and transformation he spiritually inherited as the human incarnation of the Phoenix.

VNIX has put on spectacularly theatrical and high energy concerts in Philadelphia's Love Park to large crowds, including venues like Kung Fu Necktie, World Cafe Live, NYC's Underground Lounge, Goodbye Blue Monday, and showcases such as ETC Performance Art Series. He was also selected as an emerging artist to perform at the Beta Hi-Fi Emerging Music Festival in Philadelphia.

 

Since then, he has released a 4 song pop EP titled "500" worldwide which was produced by Benny Reiner of Hamilton and mixed by Mike Roberts of Betty Who. Later, he premiered a music video for the single "Creep". During this release, VNIX spent his time performing around NYC and Philly, recording and releasing live albums of original songs and covers, which can be found on his youtube and Soundcloud channels. In addition, he filmed a “Making The Album” series on Youtube for a 3 album concept anthology titled "The Murders of Love Anthology" with the first album being titled "Horror Romance". In these videos he detailed the process behind being an independent artist with enormous creative ideas and the obstacles one encounters as a result; such as his 2017 diagnosis of vocal fold paralysis, the struggle to afford the costs of recording and music videos, etc. He has since decided to shelve that project for a future date when he has a larger budget and team to bring the project to life exactly as he envisioned.

In 2018-2019, VNIX released two singles. The first, "Sexual Telepathy", was his debut solo release produced and recorded by himself (with the exception of co-mixing/mastering) and meant to showcase the dark pop aesthetic he had been working on. Following this, he released a live studio recording "Fear Over Love" which he performed acoustically on piano at the famous Milkboy Studio in Philadelphia, PA. The song was set to be another produced release, but unfortunately, the file for the production was corrupted, so he compromised with himself by releasing an acoustic version instead. From 2020 on, VNIX has released multiple singles such as "Bad For You" and "Love Through The Pain" which in August 2023 were featured on a new album comprising of all his professional recorded works, thus far, titled "SEXISTENTIAL". 

Currently, VNIX is recording his debut album "Chrysalis" which will dive into the exploration of generational trauma, narcissistic family systems, and being a scapegoated child.

 

UPCOMING

Album "Chrysalis"

Album "Apotheosis"

Album "Zenith Chasm"

Christmas Album

Self-help book "The Powerful You"

Painting series "Damaged Gods"

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